Busy Busy Busy

So I work, attend school at night, and I must say, it's beginning to wear on me.
Half the time, I don't want to be bothered, talked to, looked at, asked to think anymore than I've already thought for the past 14 hours of the day nonstop. It's a cycle of never-ending motions and emtions, and that will continue for the next two years of my life. Sometimes I ask, what did I get myself into, is school worth going futher into debt to finance my education, sleepless hours, long nights, long days, dealing with rush hour traffic on the bus and train, walking blocks at a time, running for buses that I still tend to somehow miss, showing up late, barely reading hundreds of pages at a time, it all sounds bad right?! ....lol Well people tell me it has it's perks, I just don't see them yet, but I will once I receive that degree and the precious paycheck that comes along with it, until then prayer and that money in the future are the only things that keep me going. I just fear that my body doesn't shut down in the meantime. It's hard having to divide my time up amongst various people, places, and things nonstop from day to day. Sometimes I just want to do me, be free from chaos. So anyway pray for a sista :-/

ALONE

Who would have ever thought, a time would come,
When I want to be the only one,
no buses, subways, trains, or cars,
just me, my thoughts, and the distant stars,
A day when I can sit in silence and be free,
as the birds, who exercise true liberty,
I need a day or maybe a week to relax,
sit down enjoy nothing, and just kick back,
enjoy nothing? sounds weird, but hey I'd adore it,
like an expected birthday present, hell, I look forward to it,
but for some reason I just can't keep still,
It's my fault, I know, let's just keep it real,
when someone calls or stops by,
I'm the first one to adhere to their companionship sigh,
how do I say no, that's the problem, I just don't know,
Someday I'll realize the importance of self, but for now,
selflessness is left on the shelf,
I love my people and the things they do,
just hope they'll be there if I ever need them too :-/

-Written By Me baby: Divine Perception